And the grief process continues...

Ethan came up to me today and said "Mom, I want to be alone because I miss Ellie. My heart is breaking. There's a crack going down and over to the left. Tomorrow the crack will open up." So there you have it. Hearts are breaking, and in very specific places, I might add!

Yesterday we tortured ourselves with pictures of Ellie's last day, as well as pictures of her after she had already died. It was a good thing to do, but still very heavy. We ended up discussing every aspect of that last day, from what Ellie said to what drugs and remedies were given. All in all it was a very productive thing to do, but it did leave John feeling pretty sad at work today. (Ethan did not see the pictures, but we are glad that we have them to show him someday when he is ready and wanting that. We have some really special shots of Ethan hugging Ellie's body and kissing her face.)

Today Belinda, Melanie, Loretta and I sewed on the quilt of Ellie's clothes while Reni worked on the computer and we all watched "Pride and Prejudice". It was such a nice day! The quilt is coming along beautifully. I can't wait to show you pictures!