Ellie has been doing quite well these last few days. She has still had some pain everyday, mostly in her stomach, but has only thrown up one more time since we left the hospital. She has been doing well with her drinking, and the eating is gettin better every day. All things considered, I am very pleased. Each day Ellie's weight has dropped a little, but that isn't a surprise since she was on steriods while in the hospital and now she is losing some of the fluid build-up.
We are finally starting to see some of the grief of Ellie's cancer hit her in waves. I think that this whole thing has been quite a whirlwind for her, but now she is begining to see this cancer as a new way of life...and not a good one. She has had some times of sadness missing her friends and school, but the other night Ellie truly broke down and had a good hard cry. We had been watching it build for days, and when it came it was heartbreaking to watch. Still, I could see the tears wash the ache away from her heart and I felt that in the end it was good for her and brought much needed relief. I am often reminded to be thankful that Ellie is old enough to be logical and reasonable, but young enough to be flexible and adaptable. She is able to recognise how she feels and has the ability to process much of the information about her cancer, but then she can turn right around and play like she doesn't have a care in the world. It's good to be eight.
Thanks so much for your concern for Ellie - your love and prayers mean so much!