We will always remember Ellie for her love for others, her creativity, sensitivity, and delight in life! Ellie's light has spread far and wide... may it continue to shine in our hearts.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Phones...

I just wanted to let you know that our cell phone numbers have changed. We have finally changed the numbers from Florida area codes to Montana. Unfortunately, we had to change the whole number, not just area codes. I have tried to send out a mass email with the new numbers, but for some reason, my email list is not comprehensive. If you try to call us and cannot get through, please email me and I will send you the new numbers. Sorry for any inconvenience!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Day One Complete!

For those of you who haven't checked the blog since yesterday, be advised that this is the fourth "going to school" post since last night. If you want to get the whole thing chronologically, scroll down to last night's post first. I've tried to give you the entire event, blow by blow!

Mrs. Stevens walking Ethan to the car!
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Our big boy has completed his first day of school!
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I asked Ethan what school was like. (Thinking "good," "bad," "scary," "exciting...") He heard "what was school like?" His answer: "It was like hitting your head against a wall." So I asked if that was a good thing (because, seriously, with Ethan you never know.) His reply: "Oh yeah!"

In his own words...

First Day of School!!

Ethan woke up on his own this morning after a great night's sleep! I have done a terrible job of getting his sleeping on track for the school year. He's been up so late all summer! But Ethan has this uncanny ability to always sleep 11 hours. It doesn't matter if he goes to bed at 8 or 11. He will sleep for 11 hours from the point of falling asleep. So I actually got him down at 8:11 p.m. I think he was asleep by 8:30. That was a miracle! I was hoping that Ethan would wake up naturally - it's always harder to start the day when someone has to wake you up earlier than you want. Sure enough, at 7:15 a.m., Ethan wandered out of his room ready to start the day.

First things first... snuggles with Daddy!
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He had a nice big breakfast of cheerios and half a banana.
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Photo op - the backpack was way too heavy (laden as it was with all of his school supplies) to really carry, but he put it on for the photo. Ethan picked out his clothes for today. He wanted to wear his cancer relay T-shirt. I think it makes him feel closer to Ellie on this special day. She would have been soooo proud of him today!
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Finally at school! (Daddy did say "smile")
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The nice, and extremely tall, Principal Mr. Loyda. (We were sitting in the front row of the bleachers and John was trying to take pictures without being noticed, thus the strange angle. But even at a normal angle, Mr. Loyda really is tall - I think I overheard him tell someone he's 6'7") To the right of Mr. Loyda is Mrs. Stevens - Ethan's teacher!
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John caught Ellie's friend, Bailey (who is on her first day of 4th. grade) in the bleachers! We also saw her brother, Codey waving at us on the other side of the bleachers. (We got in a quick hug with their mom, Jen, before things got started! It is so nice to have people around that we know and love - sure makes the first day in a new school that much less scary.)
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In the classroom: (The boy across the table from Ethan is also from Florida.)
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This is the little girl who sits directly across from Ethan. Her name is Elly. Here she is with her sweet mom, Jamie. When I met Jamie a few months ago, I commented on her daughter's name and started to tell her a little bit about Ellie. As soon as she realized who I was, Jamie's eyes filled up and she said "oh, I've been following your blog for a while now!" Today I pointed out Elly's name to Ethan and he said "she kinda reminds me of Ellie."
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This is another new friend of mine, Christina. Her son Archie is in the class with Ethan.
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Ethan and Daddy in their matching shirts! Ethan did not leave one detail of this day to chance! (Except maybe my wardrobe choices - he had no say over that!)
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Stay tuned for more! We will be picking Ethan up soon and I will post more pictures and tell you all his thoughts and impressions of his first day of school. Kindergarten is only for three hours on Mon. - Fri. I think that it will be the perfect start for him. Since Ethan didn't go to pre-school, I think going to Kindergarten all day would have been pretty difficult. I love this schedule!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Big day tomorrow!

Tomorrow Ethan starts Kindergarten!! Can you believe that Ethan was only 3 years old at the begining of this "blog journey"? Where does the time go?

Tonight's pre-big-day events went like this:

Supper of champions...

First course (while the rest is cooking because Mommy got a late start on supper)
Carrots, Spinach, Edamame, and gummie vitamins
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Second course...
Bread & butter
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Third (and final) course...
Salmon and Kalamata olives (his favorite)
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No, I don't cook like this every night.

Finish it all off with a little orange juice!
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Then comes the head shaving (doesn't every little boy want to shave his head the night before Kindergarten?)...
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Then shower...
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All things are in the ready 5 position for tomorrow...
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Good night. Sweet dreams. Big day tomorrow! (Dinki, if you are reading this, I can't get over how much Ethan looks like John in this picture!)
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(Stay tuned for more pics.)

Saturday, August 23, 2008

John and Ethan's Hike

I am thrilled to show you the gorgeous pictures that John took on the 12 mile hike the other day! Seeing my little Ethan out there makes me want to sing for joy. John is so proud of him that the buttons are about to pop off his shirt! He said that everyone they passed on the trail exclaimed over the fact that Ethan was there. This was not a hike for children. But as you can see, Ethan was not suffering at all. So sit back and enjoy the show!

See that green thing on Ethan's back? That's his sword tucked into the back of his shirt. He doesn't go anywhere without that sword. It's been put back together at least twice with duct tape. Also notice Ethan's watch. Daddy has a watch, so of course Ethan wears a watch!
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If you have a pulse at all, these next shots will make you want to belt out a rousing "The hills are alive with the sound of music!" Come on, you know you want to.
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See those mountain goats all over the side of the mountain? Some of them are lying up on such tiny little ledges (calling them ledges is rather generous) that one leg hangs over. How on earth do they get to those spots? We can't figure it out.
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Whenever I see this picture, I just think that surely someone could write a whole sermon...
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Please continue on to the next post for more amazing photography by John!

Friday, August 22, 2008

Sunset Series

This is all the same sunset - from beginning to end.

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Now presenting...The Blonde Afro

the afro

No, it's not permanent.

It began like this:

Last night, both John and Ethan were in bed after having made a gruelling 12 mile hike in Glacier. (Ethan walked for a whopping 9 miles and then John carried him on his shoulders, over his backpack for three severely downhill miles in the pouring rain!) I was not so tired, because I did not do the hike. (Yes, I have made peace with the fact that my 5 year old son is stronger than I am.) Anyway, I digress. So they were sleeping and I was watching TV shows on my computer. I had finally decided that I was tired enough to sleep when a brilliant idea struck. (Note to self, not all ideas that pop into one's head in the middle of the night are worth acting upon.)



Here's the background that leads up to the story... a little hair history: (This is the part of the story when any men who are reading this have my full blessing for their eyes to glaze over...)

Me and my pin straight hair have always struggled with curl-envy. I have tried to fight it, but when one's best friend in high school has gorgeous red curls (I love you, Marion) it's rather difficult. When I was in grade school, my mother, bless her heart, used to spend painstaking hours putting "rag curls" in my long hair. (For those who have never done this, you take small strips of rags and roll a section of damp hair around the center of the strip until it touches the head. Then you tie the rag ends together to hold the little roll of hair tight. And you repeat it until the full head of hair has been done. The end result looks something like little knots of hair tied with whatever color of rag you used. When you wake up in the morning, you end up with a head full of curls that will last for days. You should try it, it's pretty cool.) When I was old enough to work with my own hair, I put sponge rollers in at bedtime. I also occasionally practiced on friends. (Julie, considering the above picture, you should feel thouroughly avenged for the time I made you look like Bozo the Clown in highschool.)



I then spent years getting permanents. The problem is, my stick straight hair would even rebel against the perms, and they never got curly enough or lasted long enough. Which is how I met my hairdresser, Cece. I walzed into her salon one day, with long straight hair and told her that I wanted the curliest perm she could give me. She said that she could do it, but tried desperately to talk me out of it. I was adament. So she did it. And I loved it. But I later had her cut it all off short. This led to the years of perming and highlighting so that I could blow dry it into the cute flippy Meg Ryan cut. I loved that. Then Cece moved out of town. And I stopped the perming and the highlighting. Talk about breaking two addictions cold turkey! Yikees. By the time Cece came back, I was desperate for something new. After fixing my months of self-coloring (which is a very painful story that we don't like to remember), Cece gave me a cut that made the most of my straight hair. And that was when a miracle happened... I had finally, for the first time in my whole life, made peace with my straight hair!! I have now spent years of happiness with my sleek, straight, short hair. (I am still addicted to highlighting, but that's another story. It turns out that somewhere along the line - no one knows exactly when, because my natural color has not exactly seen the light of day in a very long time - my naturally blonde hair turned brown. Cece says that childbirth is the culprit.)



After moving here, I found my hairdresser, Katrina! She's wonderful, and has done a great job following Cece's origional cut. I was happy. But then I stopped going for a while. I figured that I might like to let my hair grow a bit. My bangs are now too long, so I pull them back in a clip. I guess I just got kind of bored.



Which brings us to last night:

I no longer own curling irons, hot rollers, or even the dreaded sponge rollers. What do I have? Rags. Lots of them. Oh yes, I did do that. If anyone out there acted upon my earlier suggestion to try this because it's so cool, before you read the rest of this post, you totally deserve what you got! (And this is what brought me to the realization that my mom had never been properly thanked for all of the hard work she did on my hair as a child! I thought my arms were going to fall off! It took almost an hour - and that's with short hair. What makes it even more impressive is the fact that Mom didn't just do it once. She did it quite a few times! Now that's love. I love you, Mom. My little girl self may not have been thoughful enough to appreciate it, but I sure do now! And not because I'm thoughtful. Because my arms hurt.) You should have seen John and Ethan's faces this morning when they saw my head covered in little knots with white ties. (I know, I really should have gotten a picture.) The problem is, I woke up and went "oh no. I think this may not have been such a good idea." As I took out each rag, the little knots of curls just kind of sprung (sprang?) back into place against my head. So I gently proded them with my fingers. Uh-oh. The whole mass of hair just grew and grew... and, well, you know. You saw the picture!

So now I had the choice to just wash my hair and be done with the whole fiasco, or try to work with it. Like I told you, it was too much work to dismiss that easily. I ended up combing and working with the curls until I got this result:

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So there you go. I am very easily bored, and easily amused. It was sooo worth it! It's not every morning that you get to spend in gales of laughter... and in bringing laughter to everyone you see. Or rather, those who see you!

Monday, August 18, 2008

A little bit more...

So, most of my best conversations with Ethan take place in the bathroom. We just had a very lengthy conversaton (although "conversation" is rather generous... more like monologue.) It went something like this:

"Mom, do you know how many times I think of my sweet Ellie? She was so sweet. She took care of me when I was a baby tiger. When I was three. What is the smallest part of God's body, is it his pinky? We don't know when we are going to die. I might die when I'm as old as Ellie was. But I might not. But we don't know. But I probably will. Or I probably won't. You member when I went to that bounce house? You know, when I had a picture of Ellie on my back? (A cancer relay we went to not very long ago.) Well, I told this lady all about Ellie. That she was my sister, and she died from cancer. She was the mom of this little boy. I was ten hundred and seventy stronger than him. He was just a little boy. Having that picture of Ellie on my back made me think about Ellie."

Just a snippet from the mind of a five year old boy! (May I just unabashedly admit here that I'm glad I don't live in there? I'm a rather exhausted listening to it from the outside.)

Ethan-isms

"Mom, what was bacon when it was real?" (pork) "What's pork." (a pig) "Oh" (continues happily eating his bacon)

"What was bread when it was real?"

"What was (you fill in the blank) when it was real?"

"See that star up there in the sky? That's Ellie."

"I plaused the movie."

"She's freakin' me out, Dad." (On seeing a woman at a lake in a bikini)

"I'm a baby cheetah today. No, I'm a timberwolf. Oh yeah, a bengal tiger. Um, no, a cheetah. Yeah, I'm a cheetah today. But not a baby one. I'm a medium one. And you can be the mommy cheetah." (This is usually delivered machine gun style first thing in the morning. Before my coffee kicks in. And this is the short version. You don't want to hear the long one, particularly before your coffee kicks in.)

"How come you're being so cranky, Mom?" (Ummm, this one needs no explaining. Refer to above statement...)

"I'm gonna shoot ya in yer dang eye. In yer dadgum eye." (direct quote from Night at the Museum)

"What does 'soon' mean?"

"Um, Mom, don't feel bad or anything. It's not that I want you to never go hiking with us, but I want you to stay home sometimes because I don't want a bear to come over to your side."

"Why are they wearing that?" (referring to the Olympic runners and gymnasts, and said in the same tone as his freakout over the bikini)

"What does 'fall short' mean?" (also referring to the Olympics)

"When Dad's at work, I'm going to go into hiberhation."

"I'm just enjoying the show!" (When watching someone other than himself get scolded)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Pearls and Saphires

I've been thinking... and thinking... and then thinking some more...

Today someone asked me how I was doing - how I was really doing. And some of the thinking of the past days began to form words that could be spoken and written.

We were out and about yesterday, and in our travels we once again visited a beautiful river and waterfall. I found a cool spot in the shade and laid down on my back while the beauty of the place washed over me. And I felt joy. What was even more significant was the fact that I experienced joy for most of the day. And the day before that. And even the day before that. When Ellie died, it felt as if those moments of joy were little pearls being strung together against the grey backdrop of sorrow. I wondered how long this would be so. And then the moments of joy became a day of joy here and there. What struck me as I lay under the solid outcropping of rock yesterday, was that now I feel as if the moments of sadness, and sometimes still days of sadness, have become glistening saphire tears... strung together against the backdrop of a peaceful kind of joy. This joy will never be that bright sunshine yellow kind of happiness I may have felt as a child who had such a bright life ahead to experience. My badkdrop is painted with many colors, both dark and light. But the overall picture speaks of joy, deep and abiding.

Friday, August 08, 2008

Thought you'd like some visuals!

Just thought you would like this proof that we are suffering and wasting away in Montana... :-)
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Our little climbing monkey! If Ethan sees a rock, he will climb it.
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Huckleberry picking:
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My new walls. Notice that there are two different colored leaves - blue/green and gold.
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Ethan is literally climbing the walls! (And while I'm typing this, he is climbing me! He is, at this moment, sitting on my shoulders.)


New found skills for Duma. Yes, I let him do it in the house. Why? Because I'm crazy! And because there is only dirt and gravel outside. And because John hasn't seen him do it yet. But mostly because I'm crazy. (I just know that I will one day regret this...)